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Once again, I am going to go off of looming for a bit.  My babies are home for 5 weeks, and I am SO happy, but not too happy with their regular home life.  Just letting everyone know, they are my stepsons, although I treat as my own, and they have been through so much my heart aches for them.

I worry for my oldest son, since the divorce was so hard on him.  Every hurtful comment from the mom’s boyfriend (of two years or so) really gets to him.  Now he is scared that if he misbehaves I will leave him, since that was what he was told.  I was LIVID.  NO ONE speaks for me.  Period.  And I unleashed a torrent to her and to her sister about what the boyfriend had said.  I wasn’t about to stand for anyone telling him I might leave, and I never will leave him, no matter what happens between my husband and I.  So they have been warned–if I hear anything whatsoever that might even be a whisper of detrimental speaking on their behalf–talking about me, my husband, or them–I will be all over them like white on rice.  The problem was fixed, he is reassured, and I have two happy little boys right now.  I think that the boyfriend get frustrated because my oldest has a mild form of tourrets syndrome, and so handling him is a bit different than you would a normal child.  Structure is important, and so is counseling.  Since it is mild, we don’t need drugs, at least yet, for what he has.  It is fine as long as no one says anything hurtful for the most part or triggers anxiety or nervousness.  But if it gets to be any worse at that house, I am not going to stand by. 

I know I sound like one of those women who hates the ex and anything that has to do with her.  That’s not true.  We actually do get along to a degree, and I am pretty close with her family (as in I stay at their house, talk on the phone, email, hang out, etc).  I consider them family, they consider me family, and most of the time the conversations end with a “love you.”  We pretty much see eye to eye on how much we dislike the boyfriend, too, so it’s nice to have that support as well.

Ok, on to the good stuff.  We have had a blast so far…been able to go to the pool, hang out and watch movies, play some video and card games.  It’s been really nice having them here, although hectic at times.  And in the spare time, I have been able to get some knitting done.  I am ALMOST finished with the hooded scarf that I am knitting for my mom’s birthday.  I want to get started on several other projects I have running around in my head.  I want to make another hooded scarf, inspired to make some socks, and make a few more brimless hats for my mom.  I want to try to make the pinwheel blanket that I have been itching to make for a few years, especially for the baby my friend just had.  Just seems perfect.  However I can’t figure out the cast on and how to start it…

Anyway, the boys should be home in a minute from the latest swimming expedition.  I need to start getting dinner ready, and maybe get my scarf finished.  Lots to think about, lots to do!!!  Happy daze everyone!!

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Ok, I promised the pictures of my latest finished projects.  So here they are:

C PAP cover1

C PAP cover2

And I also finished a fleece blanket:

Kolby sport blanket

So those are the finished ones at this point.  I am working on my mom’s hooded scarf, and yesterday I finished my mom’s hat that she will be wearing to Colorado.  I didn’t get a picture of it, but the same type of yarn was used like in the second picture above, and it was brimless.  She wanted to sleep in it, and the brim to her was too tight for sleeping.  I actually finished that one while I was at the dentist’s office for the third time in five days.

You see, I have always had dental problems, and rarely had the insurance or money to get fixed what I need to get fixed, and when I can go it is usually for emergencies only and getting the least amount done as possible.  This time, I broke two teeth when grinding them at night, and I couldn’t ignore it since there was a LOT of pain.  The pain meds I have for arthritis did help some, but as most people know, you can’t ignore tooth pain for long.  Can’t eat right!!  I do have insurance now, quite good insurance since I work for the state, and I had some money from selling my car.  After calling eight dentists explaining I had an emergency and all telling me they couldn’t see me until late June or early July, I finally found one that could take me on a recommendation of a coworker.  The first day I went in they took two hours–they did xrays, probed, and discussed all the issues that I was aware of and quite embarassed and ashamed about (although most was not my fault due to a childhood illness that caused my enamel to go away).  The second day, I spend 3.5 hours getting a quarter of my mouth worked on.  One day off, and I got the other half of my mouth worked on for another 3.5 hours.  I now have a beautiful smile that I am not ashamed of showing, but I have had to change my speech pattern–which is well worth it.  I have an amazing dentist and an amazing dental assistant that I am forever in debt to.  So if you are in the Austin area and looking for a great dentist, let me know and I will be happy to refer you to him.  *BIG smile*

Now my kiddos are home, and here for five weeks.  I am SO happy they are here.  I miss them so much.  We have so many plans for while they are here, and I know that the time is going to go fast.  My oldest son wants to knit a little, so I am looking forward to having that time together.  My youngest is going to be in daycare, one that I trust (which is rare), while my oldest is attending daycamp next to my office.  Days he isn’t at the daycamp will be split between the daycare and staying at my office.  That alone was  a tough sell since I work in a PD and kids don’t generally go there unless in trouble.  But I am happy he is going to be with me.  I hate that I don’t get to see them often, and it breaks my heart to see them leave every time they go.  I feel  like a part of me is being ripped away.  I know that the mothers out there understand how I feel.

For now, I am going to enjoy my time with them.  Do my best to make sure that they are happy and well cared for, as well as make sure that they have a great summer while they are here with me.

Happy summer everyone!!  I hope it is as good as you want it to be!!

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I haven’t knitted in awhile, as I said before.  But knowing I was going to be down for a few days, I went and dug up a few UFOs (unfinished objects) to work on and hopefully complete after much procrastination.  I had promised Dwayne to finish his project some time ago, and yesterday afternoon I finally did.  I also finished another baby hat to add to my pile for donation, so I felt pretty good about that.  While putting the hat in the bag in the closet, I came across a few bags full of yarn, and remembered that I was supposed to knit a hooded scarf for my mom for Christmas.  So…now was the time to go ahead and start.

See, I cracked a tooth last week, and after many phone calls and much frustration, I finally found a dentist that could get me in.  He got me in and scheduled me for the beginning of a lot of dental work I had been putting off.  WONDERFUL man, and an even more wonderful assistant named Wendy.  She helped me through all of this, and I couldn’t be more grateful.  The pain has been really terrible, and without her, I don’t think I could have made it–I know that the pain is completely worth having it all fixed, but I know that you have to have someone there to hold your hand, and I am not above asking.

Anyway, I am about one skien into the scarf.  Looks like it will be needing about 5 or 6 to get through it since it is wide and thick.  It is also very soft, and I think I am going to use the same type of yarn for another project I have in mind.  Thinking about these scarfs and how I keep getting frustrated with doing the same thing over and over, I have come up with a few new ideas for patterns, and I really hope they pan out.  It will be awesome, and maybe I can learn how to put them up for sale on my blog.  **SIDE NOTE:  If anyone out there knows how to put things up for sale on a blog, PLEASE let me know!!  Thanks in advance!!**

I’ll put up the pictures of my finished project later.  I need to download them from the camera, and right now, being drugged to the eye-teeth, I don’t feel like doing much more than lie here on the couch.  Happy Monday everyone!!

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1. Please feel free to _talk to me!  I am here to listen_.
2. When I _set out fall candles_ I can’t help sniffing it occasionally.
3. My favorite thing to cook is _braised beef ribs_.
4. _Loom knitting_ is something I can’t get enough of.
5. That’s the thing I love most about _Lost–it’s an addicting show!_.
6. _The ex_ always makes me think to myself, what the heck?
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to _going to sleep_, tomorrow my plans include _studying_ and Tuesday I want to _pass my Psych test_!

The first full week of being on my own at work flew by.  It was so busy, so stressful, I was wondering just how I was going to make it.  A flurry is how it is best described.  There was a major high point to the week–we had a meeting with the State Auditors and I was finally able to meet some people I have become close to on the phone, just never had the opportunity to meet.  Mostly due to distance, but some also due to lack to time and scheduling.  It was great to see them and be able to put a face with a voice.  Otherwise, I was able to learn a lot more about what I do and how to get it done.  I was thankful for being that busy…it’s awfully quiet down in my office alone.

This weekend, after attending my class, I forced myself to relax.  Stress was beginning to wear me down, and I needed to calm down and get my focus back.  I worked on my Christmas presents for the family, and got a few things done.  I finished another soap sack, and am working on the washcloth and a pair of slippers.  I think the pattern for the slippers is great, but it takes more time than some of the other patterns.  Now, time is of the esence, so I might just switch to a different pattern…have to get these done!!

School is going ok…I am still behind in one of my classes, but I have an idea how to catch up.  This week is going to focus on that.  I do have a test in Psych I am  going to study for tomorrow.  The rest of the week is going to be dedicated to the other class.  At work, I am going to be working on getting the totals for the FEMA reimbursement.  Let’s hope that goes smoothly.

Robert is doing much better.  I don’t think he is coming back as soon as he wants to–he wants to be back next week, but I agree with his doctor.  He needs time to recover and rest, and since he had had his heart attack when he was stationary and not doing anything active, there is more reason for concern.  I just want him better.  At this point, I am feeling like a lousy friend.  I haven’t seen him since the day he had the attack, and I know I need to.  Besides being super busy, I am scared…I hate thinking of the what ifs, and seeing it for myself…I want to know he’s ok, but, well, I have a fear that things are going to change when he gets back.  I don’t know what is going to happen with our job, and that scares me.  There’s plenty I am nervous about, and I know I am avoiding, hiding.  I am not telling him all that I want to tell him (problems and such) because I don’t want him to worry or cause undue stress.  Instead, I am keeping it to myself–there really isn’t anyone else to lean on–and it’s getting harder and harder.

Ok, time to turn in…I will try to be on time next week!!  I hope that all of this levels out soon!!  When I get the slippers finished, I will start taking pictures of the Christmas presents.  Hope all have a good week!!

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