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Here it is, January 2010!!  I think I might have gotten an hour’s worth of sleep on New Year’s Eve…not because I was out partying with people, but because (1) poor Izzy couldn’t get comfortable with her foot injury, (2) my back injury and (3) my neighbors had a party from 5pm to 6am.  I know that they are older than me by some years, but even I can’t party for 12 hours straight, or even have company for that long!! 

The new year brings a lot for me.  It will be the year that I become single again.  The year that I graduate from college.  The year I become a certified sexual assault advocate.  There is a lot that I am expecting of this year, and I really hope that it does turn out great.  I am making an effort to be a lot more positive, and being a lot less of a procrastinator. 

I have made a lot of adjustments the past few weeks since leaving my ex.  Living in the new house has been pretty good, and my grandfather and I are getting along pretty well.  The pups are now comfortable with him, and I am so relieved by that!  Izzy is finally feeling better since she broke off her nail, and walking normal.  I have had two appointments with my massage therapist, and feeling a little better.  When Izzy injured herself, she didn’t like me trying to look at her foot, and then ended up hurting me.  My hips were hurt when she threw herself back, and ended up losing 30% of my rotation.  It’s going to be ok, just need to work on them.  The only other issue that I am having is the lack of space for me at the house.  I am doing what I can with the space allotted, but I am having to get seriously creative with storage.  I still have many boxes to go through, but no space to put things away.  I wish I did, but just not possible.  Will see what I can do…I am trying to figure a plan, but think I have one formualting…

My cousin, Hilary, got married to her boyfriend of 7 years on the 10th.  I wasn’t sure that I was going to have a good time, but I was surprised that I actually had a lot of fun.  🙂  She was absolutely stunning, glowing, happy…all the things that a bride should be.  There were things that went wrong, of course, but she took them all in stride and laughed at it.  It made things just that much better.  I managed to avoid the usual statement that I make when I see her…”I remember when I changed your diapers, you were so cute…”  But I did say it to my aunt.  HAD to get it out.  LOL!  Anyway, here are some pictures…

The day after the wedding, I woke to disaster.  I thought that I had had a good hold on my emotions, but I was proven wrong.  It started with the fact I only got an hour of sleep after returning from the wedding–I let my “date” (close friend of mine) have my bed and I slept on the couch.  G’pa was up by 6:30a, and I had just managed to fall asleep on the couch.  Since I was up and moving, I decided to go ahead and do a load of laundry.  Apparantly, that was the last straw for the sewer line–it collapsed, and flooded the driveway clean out and both of the bathrooms.  G’pa was very upset, and that was the straw that broke my emotional dam–I stepped outside, called my ex, and sobbed.  Got it under control, and then my parents showed up to try to fix it–and again, I broke down sobbing.  After taking some meds, I calmed down and slept for about an hour.  I was able to better deal with the situations.  They told us it would be fixed by Thursday (today), but now since it is raining it will not be fixed until Saturday or Monday.  I never realized just how much I rely on a sewer line until this happened and everything I need to do relies on it–showers, laundry, dishes, bathroom–it sucks.  And I have to stay there to make sure things are going ok, sign stuff, and answer questions.  Just glad that there are stores nearby and another set of grandparents that are only about 5 miles away.  *sigh*  It is a trial, but I can manage. 

Other than that, just been pouring through case files to try and show the need for a sexual assault advocacy program.  I have joined a SART in Williamson country, and will be doing the same in Hays.  I am very exicted about the program, and going to be working on computerizing my findings as I go.  I have been pretty much putting off all else around the house and in my life to do my research–still need to write out letters to friends about moving, make a few more presents thru knitting, and a few other things.  Like dating.  I am seriously considering it, and actually signed up for an online dating service.  Never done it before, and we will see how it goes. 🙂

Happy New Year to everyone!!!

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The dreaded D

Yep, I have been out of touch for awhile.  There has been a lot on my plate to deal with, and I haven’t been dealing with it very well.  Down 20 pounds, and really can’t afford to lose the weight (down to 100), plus the addition of two anxiety meds as well as my pain meds being increased.  But  there is some good news to go along with all of this.  Seeing as most people ask for bad news first, we’ll start there.

As most know, I have been married for almost four years.  I am wife number three.  I have two stepsons, the oldest I have been around since he was five and the youngest since he was 8 months old.  I tried to be the best stepmom ever, trying harder to make a stable environment with structure and love.  For my youngest, it was easy, as he didn’t know any different from having two moms and a dad.  For my oldest, it was harder–he knew what it was like when his parents were married, and now there was someone new that he had to treat like a mom.  It has gone ok, but there have been problems.  Mostly the problems come from my marriage, though.

My husband is not a nice person.  For years I have blamed his father for that; he is a horrible man that is very verbally abusive.  My husband has always said he does not want to be like his father, but sadly he is just like him.  He has no patience, a very volitile temper, and is miserable–never happy unless everyone around him is miserable, too.  It has gotten worse as the years have gone by, and I have finally reached my breaking point.  I teach the cycle of abuse, as mentioned in my last post.  Just like almost every other victim, I made excuses all the time for his behavior, always saying he will change, saying that he is sorry after he treats me so badly and does all he can to make it up.  Towards the middle of October, that changed.  He said things that I won’t forget, and won’t make excuses for.  Things like he hates me, doesn’t like me, isn’t attracted to me, that I am a waste of space, the most cruel person he knows, a bitch, etc.  I realized then that when he goes on rants like that, I cry and beg for another chance, saying I will be better.  It took me a few years, but I realize now that it isn’t me.  I will say there is a small part–very small–that is me and my personality, but not enough to trigger this amount of extreme hatred.  After looking at this from a perspective of someone investigating a domestic abuse situation rather than from the first person point of view, several things popped out.  His past with his dysfunctional family.  The fact he had two previous wives.  The switching of personality, from happy and nice hubby to the mean and cruel man.  I can say from a psychological point of view that he has a high probability of being bipolar and hates women.  But like most abusers (not all, but most), no one thinks he is capable of being what I say he is.  They see him as a laid back, super nice guy that would go out of his way to help someone.  To someone’s face, he is that. But as soon as the person is out of earshot, he will tear them apart. 

To make a long story shorter (because this post is already long, and only going to get longer), I finally told my parents what was going on, something he thinks I would never do (my parents are not fond of divorce–but they love me, and always support my decisions).  Both agreed that I need to get a divorce.  That’s when things really got rolling.  It was going to wait until January, but got pushed up because he made a threat.  All the paperwork is now done, and just waiting to give it to him.  I don’t want any more conflict; I just want (and need) out. He still doesn’t know, and won’t know until the day it happens.  *sigh*  This all happens tomorrow.  I am stressed and scared, but thankful that my friends and family have been so supportive.  I don’t know what I would have done without them.  Thank you to all who have listened–I really appreciate it.  🙂

Ok, on to the good news.  My friend Sam and his wife had their baby last week!  I finally had finished the blanket for them and it made it there in time.  🙂  It was the color of the nursery–something I hadn’t planned–so that was good luck, too!!  Sam posted some pictures, and I was so thrilled to see baby Jack wrapped in the blanket I made at the hospital! 

Baby Jack's blanket--finally finished!!

I was honored that they brought it with them, and so happy that it has found such a loving home. 

Over the past year and two months, my department has been planning a conference for the Texas Association of College and University Police Administrators (TACUPA).  At first, I didn’t understand why on earth we were starting the planning so early.  By the time that the conference rolled around, I completely understood.  No matter how much we planned, there were still things that went wrong.  We were able to keep most of it hidden, and we were all proud of that.  But I will write another post about the conference…under the emergency management tab.  🙂  Hopefully I can get that done today, too!!

Until later, hope everyone has a happy holidays!!  Thank you to everyone who has been there for me, and continues to be there for me.  I am very blessed to have such wonderful friends. One more day…and hopefully things go smoothly.  Wish me luck.  🙂

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Winnie the Pooh has always been one of my absolute favorites.  Many blankets, a few stuffed animals, plenty of clothes…I may be grown, but Pooh has always had a place in my heart.  And I think he said it best…”Oh, bother.”  That can sum up my month.

Many know that for the last four years hubby and I have been trying to have a child together.  He has two of his own, and for the summer is when we get them–we had the youngest for a month, and my oldest SS stayed until yesterday.  At the beginning of July, hubby and I decided that it was time again to go back on fertility meds.  So we did–and I remembered quite quickly the side effects of Clomid.  The hot flashes, mood swings, and the trouble focusing because of the previous two.  This also meant that I had to stop taking my arthritis meds–my arthritis being in my knees and hips.  So walking became an issue, but I was allowed my pain med and muscle relaxer.  That helped, but I am back to using a cane.  A little over a week ago was when we started blood testing, and we were excited since I was late–but all came back negative.  However, progesterone was way up, and the OB wanted an ultrasound to see what was going on.  It was a mortifying experience since there were a few mishaps, but it turned out I had a ruptured cyst, which mimicked the signs of early pregnancy.  This month there will be no Clomid so I can recover (sucks), but still will try.

That in itself had me down, but now I have a new focus…my birthday.  I turn 30 on Tuesday.  Most people–women especially–will understand the slight depression of turning 30.  It is the loss of your 20s…and a time for reflection.  At least to me.  Growing up, most people have a thought of how life will turn out for them.  Me, I had mine planned:
1. Graduating high school
2. Go to college and graduate in 4 years
3. Marry my high school sweetheart
4. Get an awesome job
5. Have my first child
…all by the time I was 26.  Here I am, days from 30…  
1.  I did graduate from high school.  Check! 
2. I went to college–but won’t be graduating until next spring (I hope), so that took 13 years (yes, just for my BA…had a few bumps in the road).
3. My high school sweetheart and I broke up the first year in college, and I had a little bit of a smirk when I found out he married someone who looked like my twin.  🙂  However, I did get married, but at age 26–and to a customer from a bar where I worked–lol!!
4. I did get an awesome job, just accomplished this year (well, kinda last year, but too much to get in to).  Took me almost 10 years, but I was persistent about working for this PD.  Granted I drive 65 miles each way, I am super happy where I am at and thrilled at what I do.
5. Turns out havin kiddos of my own is a bit of a challenge.  But I have made up my mind that now is the time.  Risks for me are already high as it is, so waiting much longer will just make things worse. I do have two great stepsons (when they don’t hate me for having rules), but it’s not the same. 

But with my birthday comes presents–and some come early.  🙂  Hubby was wonderful and ordered me some BEAUTIFUL looms from DA Looms (again, thank you Isela!!  They are perfect!!).  I finally got the Wondersock Loom and an RG 60″ Infinity Rake.  They are perfect!!  I decided to knit myself a pair of birthday socks, and finished them yesterday.  I wanted to finish them last week, but of course I kept getting distracted by other projects–I finished a beanie for a dear friend that is an EMT, and still working on a scarf in a tiled pattern in the gorgeous plum chenille yarn.  Have more sock yarn I want to use, and can’t wait to start again…

My parent’s threw me a birthday party yesterday, and was quite surprised to see that there were so many people that came, including Robert and family from an hour and a half away…it was great.  I was also surprised that I had such a great time.   Here are some birthday highlights:

Anyway, the big day is tomorrow, and I will be enjoying it at work.  🙂

Speaking of…need to get back to it!!

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Once again, I am going to go off of looming for a bit.  My babies are home for 5 weeks, and I am SO happy, but not too happy with their regular home life.  Just letting everyone know, they are my stepsons, although I treat as my own, and they have been through so much my heart aches for them.

I worry for my oldest son, since the divorce was so hard on him.  Every hurtful comment from the mom’s boyfriend (of two years or so) really gets to him.  Now he is scared that if he misbehaves I will leave him, since that was what he was told.  I was LIVID.  NO ONE speaks for me.  Period.  And I unleashed a torrent to her and to her sister about what the boyfriend had said.  I wasn’t about to stand for anyone telling him I might leave, and I never will leave him, no matter what happens between my husband and I.  So they have been warned–if I hear anything whatsoever that might even be a whisper of detrimental speaking on their behalf–talking about me, my husband, or them–I will be all over them like white on rice.  The problem was fixed, he is reassured, and I have two happy little boys right now.  I think that the boyfriend get frustrated because my oldest has a mild form of tourrets syndrome, and so handling him is a bit different than you would a normal child.  Structure is important, and so is counseling.  Since it is mild, we don’t need drugs, at least yet, for what he has.  It is fine as long as no one says anything hurtful for the most part or triggers anxiety or nervousness.  But if it gets to be any worse at that house, I am not going to stand by. 

I know I sound like one of those women who hates the ex and anything that has to do with her.  That’s not true.  We actually do get along to a degree, and I am pretty close with her family (as in I stay at their house, talk on the phone, email, hang out, etc).  I consider them family, they consider me family, and most of the time the conversations end with a “love you.”  We pretty much see eye to eye on how much we dislike the boyfriend, too, so it’s nice to have that support as well.

Ok, on to the good stuff.  We have had a blast so far…been able to go to the pool, hang out and watch movies, play some video and card games.  It’s been really nice having them here, although hectic at times.  And in the spare time, I have been able to get some knitting done.  I am ALMOST finished with the hooded scarf that I am knitting for my mom’s birthday.  I want to get started on several other projects I have running around in my head.  I want to make another hooded scarf, inspired to make some socks, and make a few more brimless hats for my mom.  I want to try to make the pinwheel blanket that I have been itching to make for a few years, especially for the baby my friend just had.  Just seems perfect.  However I can’t figure out the cast on and how to start it…

Anyway, the boys should be home in a minute from the latest swimming expedition.  I need to start getting dinner ready, and maybe get my scarf finished.  Lots to think about, lots to do!!!  Happy daze everyone!!

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Ok, I promised the pictures of my latest finished projects.  So here they are:

C PAP cover1

C PAP cover2

And I also finished a fleece blanket:

Kolby sport blanket

So those are the finished ones at this point.  I am working on my mom’s hooded scarf, and yesterday I finished my mom’s hat that she will be wearing to Colorado.  I didn’t get a picture of it, but the same type of yarn was used like in the second picture above, and it was brimless.  She wanted to sleep in it, and the brim to her was too tight for sleeping.  I actually finished that one while I was at the dentist’s office for the third time in five days.

You see, I have always had dental problems, and rarely had the insurance or money to get fixed what I need to get fixed, and when I can go it is usually for emergencies only and getting the least amount done as possible.  This time, I broke two teeth when grinding them at night, and I couldn’t ignore it since there was a LOT of pain.  The pain meds I have for arthritis did help some, but as most people know, you can’t ignore tooth pain for long.  Can’t eat right!!  I do have insurance now, quite good insurance since I work for the state, and I had some money from selling my car.  After calling eight dentists explaining I had an emergency and all telling me they couldn’t see me until late June or early July, I finally found one that could take me on a recommendation of a coworker.  The first day I went in they took two hours–they did xrays, probed, and discussed all the issues that I was aware of and quite embarassed and ashamed about (although most was not my fault due to a childhood illness that caused my enamel to go away).  The second day, I spend 3.5 hours getting a quarter of my mouth worked on.  One day off, and I got the other half of my mouth worked on for another 3.5 hours.  I now have a beautiful smile that I am not ashamed of showing, but I have had to change my speech pattern–which is well worth it.  I have an amazing dentist and an amazing dental assistant that I am forever in debt to.  So if you are in the Austin area and looking for a great dentist, let me know and I will be happy to refer you to him.  *BIG smile*

Now my kiddos are home, and here for five weeks.  I am SO happy they are here.  I miss them so much.  We have so many plans for while they are here, and I know that the time is going to go fast.  My oldest son wants to knit a little, so I am looking forward to having that time together.  My youngest is going to be in daycare, one that I trust (which is rare), while my oldest is attending daycamp next to my office.  Days he isn’t at the daycamp will be split between the daycare and staying at my office.  That alone was  a tough sell since I work in a PD and kids don’t generally go there unless in trouble.  But I am happy he is going to be with me.  I hate that I don’t get to see them often, and it breaks my heart to see them leave every time they go.  I feel  like a part of me is being ripped away.  I know that the mothers out there understand how I feel.

For now, I am going to enjoy my time with them.  Do my best to make sure that they are happy and well cared for, as well as make sure that they have a great summer while they are here with me.

Happy summer everyone!!  I hope it is as good as you want it to be!!

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I’ve been behind in reading friend’s blogs, and just found this post.  So I decided to respond!!  *grins*  This is in response to Karen Gielen’s blog post What are you Loom Knitting.
Afghan – yes, in progress
I-cord – yes
Garter stitch – yes
Knitting with metal wire – no
Shawl – yes
Stockinette stitch – yes
Socks: top-down – yes, I have done several with my new sock/mitten looms!  Love it!!
Socks: toe-up – no
Knitting with camel yarn – No
Mittens: Cuff-up – no
Mittens: Tip-down – no
Hat – Many
Knitting with silk a fine strand with wool for socks – no
Moebius band knitting – no
Participating in a KAL – Not yet
Sweater – yes, and it turned out the wrong size.  Cute, but way too small.  I will try again!
Drop stitch patterns – no
Knitting with recycled/secondhand yarn – no, just because I don’t know anybody who has any to give away
Slip stitch patterns – no
Knitting with banana fiber yarn – no
Twisted stitch patterns – not yet
Knitting with bamboo yarn – no
Charity knitting – yes, I knit for a pregnancy center here in town.  Have a big bag to go and give them…
Knitting with soy yarn – no
Cardigan – no
Toy/doll clothing –no
Baby items – yes, for the pregnancy center
Knitting with your own handspun yarn –no
Slippers – yes, a few pair of slipper socks
Designing knitted garments – No
Cable stitch patterns – Not yet
Lace patterns – yes
Publishing a knitting book – no
Scarf – many
Teaching a child to knit – yes, my oldest SS and a friend’s child.
Knitting to make money – No, put may in the future
Buttonholes – yes
Knitting with alpaca – yes, for hubby when he went on his trip
Fair Isle knitting – no
Dying with plant colors – no
Knitting items for a wedding – no
Household items (dishcloths, washcloths, tea cosies…) – Yes
Knittng socks (or other small tubular items) – yes, a few
Knitting with someone else’s handspun yarn – no
Holiday related knitting – knitted several hats & scarves for a christmas presents
Teaching a male how to loom knit – yes, my SS
Bobbles – not yet
Knitting for a living – no
Knitting with cotton – yes
Knitting smocking – no
Dying yarn – no
Knitting art – no
Fulling/felting – not yet
Knitting with wool – have the yarn and project, just not yet
Textured knitting – no
Kitchener stitch – no
Purses/bags – yes
Knitting with beads – no
Swatching – yes
Long Tail CO – I don’t think so
Knitting and purling backwards – not that I am aware of
Knitting with self patterning/self striping/variegated yarn – yes
Stuffed toys – no
Knitting with cashmere (mmm, cashmere!) – no
Darning – no
Jewelry – no
Knitting with synthetic yarn – Most ot the time
Writing a pattern – no, I wish I was that talented
Intarsia – no
Knitting with linen – no
Knitting for preemies – yes
Short rows – Yes
Cuffs/fingerless mits/armwarmers – no
Pillows – no
Knitting a pattern from an online knitting magazine – yes
Rug – no, but I’d like to
Knitting on a loom – Yes, of course!
Knitting a gift – yes
Knitting for a pet? – no
Shrug/bolero/poncho – yes
Knitting with dog/cat hair accidentally or on purpose? – no
Hair accessories – no, but I have a pattern for one
Knitting in public – yes, when I leave the house!  LOL
Knitting with buffalo yarn – no
Knitting with pygora – no
Dyeing with food dye/drink mixes – no
Dyeing with chemical dyes (acid, etc) – no

That was fun!  Anyone else?

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