Posts Tagged ‘happy’

Winnie the Pooh has always been one of my absolute favorites.  Many blankets, a few stuffed animals, plenty of clothes…I may be grown, but Pooh has always had a place in my heart.  And I think he said it best…”Oh, bother.”  That can sum up my month.

Many know that for the last four years hubby and I have been trying to have a child together.  He has two of his own, and for the summer is when we get them–we had the youngest for a month, and my oldest SS stayed until yesterday.  At the beginning of July, hubby and I decided that it was time again to go back on fertility meds.  So we did–and I remembered quite quickly the side effects of Clomid.  The hot flashes, mood swings, and the trouble focusing because of the previous two.  This also meant that I had to stop taking my arthritis meds–my arthritis being in my knees and hips.  So walking became an issue, but I was allowed my pain med and muscle relaxer.  That helped, but I am back to using a cane.  A little over a week ago was when we started blood testing, and we were excited since I was late–but all came back negative.  However, progesterone was way up, and the OB wanted an ultrasound to see what was going on.  It was a mortifying experience since there were a few mishaps, but it turned out I had a ruptured cyst, which mimicked the signs of early pregnancy.  This month there will be no Clomid so I can recover (sucks), but still will try.

That in itself had me down, but now I have a new focus…my birthday.  I turn 30 on Tuesday.  Most people–women especially–will understand the slight depression of turning 30.  It is the loss of your 20s…and a time for reflection.  At least to me.  Growing up, most people have a thought of how life will turn out for them.  Me, I had mine planned:
1. Graduating high school
2. Go to college and graduate in 4 years
3. Marry my high school sweetheart
4. Get an awesome job
5. Have my first child
…all by the time I was 26.  Here I am, days from 30…  
1.  I did graduate from high school.  Check! 
2. I went to college–but won’t be graduating until next spring (I hope), so that took 13 years (yes, just for my BA…had a few bumps in the road).
3. My high school sweetheart and I broke up the first year in college, and I had a little bit of a smirk when I found out he married someone who looked like my twin.  🙂  However, I did get married, but at age 26–and to a customer from a bar where I worked–lol!!
4. I did get an awesome job, just accomplished this year (well, kinda last year, but too much to get in to).  Took me almost 10 years, but I was persistent about working for this PD.  Granted I drive 65 miles each way, I am super happy where I am at and thrilled at what I do.
5. Turns out havin kiddos of my own is a bit of a challenge.  But I have made up my mind that now is the time.  Risks for me are already high as it is, so waiting much longer will just make things worse. I do have two great stepsons (when they don’t hate me for having rules), but it’s not the same. 

But with my birthday comes presents–and some come early.  🙂  Hubby was wonderful and ordered me some BEAUTIFUL looms from DA Looms (again, thank you Isela!!  They are perfect!!).  I finally got the Wondersock Loom and an RG 60″ Infinity Rake.  They are perfect!!  I decided to knit myself a pair of birthday socks, and finished them yesterday.  I wanted to finish them last week, but of course I kept getting distracted by other projects–I finished a beanie for a dear friend that is an EMT, and still working on a scarf in a tiled pattern in the gorgeous plum chenille yarn.  Have more sock yarn I want to use, and can’t wait to start again…

My parent’s threw me a birthday party yesterday, and was quite surprised to see that there were so many people that came, including Robert and family from an hour and a half away…it was great.  I was also surprised that I had such a great time.   Here are some birthday highlights:

Anyway, the big day is tomorrow, and I will be enjoying it at work.  🙂

Speaking of…need to get back to it!!


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Ok, I promised the pictures of my latest finished projects.  So here they are:

C PAP cover1

C PAP cover2

And I also finished a fleece blanket:

Kolby sport blanket

So those are the finished ones at this point.  I am working on my mom’s hooded scarf, and yesterday I finished my mom’s hat that she will be wearing to Colorado.  I didn’t get a picture of it, but the same type of yarn was used like in the second picture above, and it was brimless.  She wanted to sleep in it, and the brim to her was too tight for sleeping.  I actually finished that one while I was at the dentist’s office for the third time in five days.

You see, I have always had dental problems, and rarely had the insurance or money to get fixed what I need to get fixed, and when I can go it is usually for emergencies only and getting the least amount done as possible.  This time, I broke two teeth when grinding them at night, and I couldn’t ignore it since there was a LOT of pain.  The pain meds I have for arthritis did help some, but as most people know, you can’t ignore tooth pain for long.  Can’t eat right!!  I do have insurance now, quite good insurance since I work for the state, and I had some money from selling my car.  After calling eight dentists explaining I had an emergency and all telling me they couldn’t see me until late June or early July, I finally found one that could take me on a recommendation of a coworker.  The first day I went in they took two hours–they did xrays, probed, and discussed all the issues that I was aware of and quite embarassed and ashamed about (although most was not my fault due to a childhood illness that caused my enamel to go away).  The second day, I spend 3.5 hours getting a quarter of my mouth worked on.  One day off, and I got the other half of my mouth worked on for another 3.5 hours.  I now have a beautiful smile that I am not ashamed of showing, but I have had to change my speech pattern–which is well worth it.  I have an amazing dentist and an amazing dental assistant that I am forever in debt to.  So if you are in the Austin area and looking for a great dentist, let me know and I will be happy to refer you to him.  *BIG smile*

Now my kiddos are home, and here for five weeks.  I am SO happy they are here.  I miss them so much.  We have so many plans for while they are here, and I know that the time is going to go fast.  My oldest son wants to knit a little, so I am looking forward to having that time together.  My youngest is going to be in daycare, one that I trust (which is rare), while my oldest is attending daycamp next to my office.  Days he isn’t at the daycamp will be split between the daycare and staying at my office.  That alone was  a tough sell since I work in a PD and kids don’t generally go there unless in trouble.  But I am happy he is going to be with me.  I hate that I don’t get to see them often, and it breaks my heart to see them leave every time they go.  I feel  like a part of me is being ripped away.  I know that the mothers out there understand how I feel.

For now, I am going to enjoy my time with them.  Do my best to make sure that they are happy and well cared for, as well as make sure that they have a great summer while they are here with me.

Happy summer everyone!!  I hope it is as good as you want it to be!!

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I haven’t knitted in awhile, as I said before.  But knowing I was going to be down for a few days, I went and dug up a few UFOs (unfinished objects) to work on and hopefully complete after much procrastination.  I had promised Dwayne to finish his project some time ago, and yesterday afternoon I finally did.  I also finished another baby hat to add to my pile for donation, so I felt pretty good about that.  While putting the hat in the bag in the closet, I came across a few bags full of yarn, and remembered that I was supposed to knit a hooded scarf for my mom for Christmas.  So…now was the time to go ahead and start.

See, I cracked a tooth last week, and after many phone calls and much frustration, I finally found a dentist that could get me in.  He got me in and scheduled me for the beginning of a lot of dental work I had been putting off.  WONDERFUL man, and an even more wonderful assistant named Wendy.  She helped me through all of this, and I couldn’t be more grateful.  The pain has been really terrible, and without her, I don’t think I could have made it–I know that the pain is completely worth having it all fixed, but I know that you have to have someone there to hold your hand, and I am not above asking.

Anyway, I am about one skien into the scarf.  Looks like it will be needing about 5 or 6 to get through it since it is wide and thick.  It is also very soft, and I think I am going to use the same type of yarn for another project I have in mind.  Thinking about these scarfs and how I keep getting frustrated with doing the same thing over and over, I have come up with a few new ideas for patterns, and I really hope they pan out.  It will be awesome, and maybe I can learn how to put them up for sale on my blog.  **SIDE NOTE:  If anyone out there knows how to put things up for sale on a blog, PLEASE let me know!!  Thanks in advance!!**

I’ll put up the pictures of my finished project later.  I need to download them from the camera, and right now, being drugged to the eye-teeth, I don’t feel like doing much more than lie here on the couch.  Happy Monday everyone!!

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I found a cute blog that I want to start using here.  It’s called Friday Fill-Ins.  However…last night was a bit busy with the trick or treat-ers, so I will do the first one now!  Then on to new news!!

1. My favorite food seasoning is _salt.  Simple and basic_.
2. _”Time to go to knitting circle!!”_ is music to my ears.
3. Lucky is _being blessed with what you need_.
4. _My job, which I love, and knitting, which I also love,_ is something I take very seriously.
5. Many people _depend on me_.
6. _Halloween candy_ was the last thing I bought at the store.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to _the cookout with my neighbors_, tomorrow my plans include _writing my articulation statement and knitting Christmas gifts_ and I want to _make a dent in writing my portfolio_!

Onto other things…

My friend Alexis was so wonderful as to introduce me to a great group of women–a knitting circle that happens to be close to my home!  So now, every Thursday, I am forunate enough to sit around with women (and one man, actually) who all enjoy doing the same thing I do.  There are a few loom knitters, but most are traditional knitters and crocheters.  It’s really nice to get away from home and homework and work and just be. 

I am also still happily working for the university, although only down to “student worker” since I am currently attending classes again.  It’s actually a good thing that I had reduced hours since school is taking up a lot of time.  But I did start applying for new jobs that are also at the university, just not doing what I am doing now.  My first interview is tomorrow with safe schools, and I really doubt that I will get it.  Mainly because I know that they already have someone in a temp position there, and most likely they will get the job.  It’s no big deal really…the money is good, but there is a lot of travel.  So I can go either way.  I also applied in several departments for the administrative assistant II positions, and do have a great chance.  I just really want something more…not being full time is really beginning to hurt, especially knowing that Christmas is right around the corner and we have the boys.  Plus benefits…since I quit the other job, I have been without benefits.  Student workers don’t qualify.  I have hope tho!

I did design a new pattern.  For once, I have decided to sell it.  I also have many other ideas for patterns, and now just have to figure out how to knit them and get it on paper.  Here’s a picture of my design:

Just excited!!! 
Anyway, that’s the latest, and hopefully I will begin to keep up with posting here again.  Many thanks to Bethany for helping with my edits!! *hugs*

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Saturday was a great day.  I was SO happy!!  It was my grandparent’s birthdays–my grandmother turned 80 and my grandfather turned 90, and we were celebrating at my parent’s house.  I didn’t finish the blanket that I am making for my grandmother, but I did bring part of it to show her.  She LOVED it!  She is very excited.  I am happy about that; she has Alzheimers disease, and is depressed most of the time.  Any bit of happiness I can bring her just makes it that much better.  We also got to see many family friends that we haven’t seen in quite some time, and the party was a wonderful success.  DH and I even got our taxes done!  But the best (personal) part was that Saturday marked day 1–I start the Clomid on Wednesday!!  Can’t wait!!

The rest of our weekend went well.  We got the house back in order, prepared for the boys coming next weekend, and spent some time together adding a few touches to the house. 

Then today happened.  I woke up feeling awful.  So much pain!!  I took the painkiller that I am allowed to take (the one I would normally take I am no longer allowed to–with us trying to get pg, a lot of the meds I take to regulate pain are no longer options), and crawled onto the couch.  As usual, I called my mom and dad, chatted a bit about why I was up so early.  Then DH calls.  He was crying–something that is WAY abnormal, and really freaked me out.  A friend (his coworker) passed away on Friday due to a massive heart attack–he was only 34.  I can’t believe he’s gone–it breaks my heart to think of it.  The worst news was that he was putting his two little girls to bed when it happened, and they are only 6 and 4.  That poor family…I can’t even imagine what they are going through, and I want to do what I can for them.  He and his family are amazing people.  It still hasn’t quite sunk in yet….

I am just so torn right now…very sad and heart broken for the loss of a friend and the pain that that family is in, and excitement and anticipation for the start of ours.  For now–I am just going to knit.  I can’t think about anything right now…I just don’t want to.

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