Archive for November, 2008

Scarf Swap on CafeMom

It’s that time of year again!  My group on CafeMom has a scarf swap at Christmastime each year–well, it’s the second year that the group has done it since we have only been around two years.  🙂  I have been super excited about this since I haven’t been able to participate the last few swaps with as much stuff I have had to do.  I almost decided not to do this exchange with Robert’s heart attack and work and school, but I figured that a few hours here and there wouldn’t be too difficult to find.  I wanted to do something special and use a different stitch.  So I did a lattice stitch, and it turned out just beautiful.  My swap partner wanted something long that she could wrap up with, so I used two skeins of Naturally Caron SPA yarn (bamboo blend) in Green Sheen.  Here’s how it turned out:




And of course, Trooper was trying to get into the pictures, so I took one of him, too.


Also I have been working on knitting spa sets for some of the women in my family.  I ordered special soaps and bath bombs from a wonderful website In Kristine’s Shower and will put them all together for their gifts.  They are a bit time consuming, and with my schoolwork being pretty far behind, it’s getting hard to carve out knitting time for my gifts.  I haven’t even made it to my knitting group for two weeks now, and probably won’t for a few more.  When finals are over, I will be more apt to be able to go out.  Anyway, this is how the sets have turned out:


In the sets I have a soap sack, a small washcloth, a scrubbie, soap and a bath bomb.  I like it.  🙂

This week is going to be very busy.  Today, Tues, and Wednesday I will be working since we are off for Thanksgiving on Thursday and Friday.  Tomorrow I am going to go and visit Robert.  I am very excited about getting to see him–it’s been almost three weeks now, and I really need to see how he’s doing in person.  His stress test an exam is tomorrow morning.  It’s rare to hear or see him scared about something, and he’s scared about this.  I am, too.  If they find more heart disease then he will have more surgery, something both of us don’t want.  However, if there is, it’s better they catch it now than later.  After that…work Wednesday, Thursday is Thanksgiving.  Dreading that day…so much to get ready for, plus the first set of family pictures for my mom’s side.  Friday we are considering getting up early and trying to get some Christmas gifts, but as the day gets closer, we are debating on whether it is worth it getting up that early to get one gift that will rarely be used.  Friday is also when we are going to do portraits for my dad’s side of the family at my high school best friend’s new restaurant (follow that? *grins*).  We moved it indoors since my grandmother is worried about the weather.  I don’t like the cold much–tends to bother my arthritis.  Indoors is fine by me, and getting to see James at his new place is icing on the cake.

During all this madhouse of activity, I am frantically trying to complete my portfolio for my class.  Then finals and…I am done for the semester!!  I have applied for another job that I should interview for in two weeks; I would be doing what I am doing now plus working for another department.  However, this will be a full-time with benefits position rather than the student one that I have been downgraded to.  Not that I am unhappy with the student position.  It did help in allowing for more time to study, I just wish I had taken advantage of it instead of procrastinating (as usual!!). 

Anywho…off to do some homework….


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1. Please feel free to _talk to me!  I am here to listen_.
2. When I _set out fall candles_ I can’t help sniffing it occasionally.
3. My favorite thing to cook is _braised beef ribs_.
4. _Loom knitting_ is something I can’t get enough of.
5. That’s the thing I love most about _Lost–it’s an addicting show!_.
6. _The ex_ always makes me think to myself, what the heck?
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to _going to sleep_, tomorrow my plans include _studying_ and Tuesday I want to _pass my Psych test_!

The first full week of being on my own at work flew by.  It was so busy, so stressful, I was wondering just how I was going to make it.  A flurry is how it is best described.  There was a major high point to the week–we had a meeting with the State Auditors and I was finally able to meet some people I have become close to on the phone, just never had the opportunity to meet.  Mostly due to distance, but some also due to lack to time and scheduling.  It was great to see them and be able to put a face with a voice.  Otherwise, I was able to learn a lot more about what I do and how to get it done.  I was thankful for being that busy…it’s awfully quiet down in my office alone.

This weekend, after attending my class, I forced myself to relax.  Stress was beginning to wear me down, and I needed to calm down and get my focus back.  I worked on my Christmas presents for the family, and got a few things done.  I finished another soap sack, and am working on the washcloth and a pair of slippers.  I think the pattern for the slippers is great, but it takes more time than some of the other patterns.  Now, time is of the esence, so I might just switch to a different pattern…have to get these done!!

School is going ok…I am still behind in one of my classes, but I have an idea how to catch up.  This week is going to focus on that.  I do have a test in Psych I am  going to study for tomorrow.  The rest of the week is going to be dedicated to the other class.  At work, I am going to be working on getting the totals for the FEMA reimbursement.  Let’s hope that goes smoothly.

Robert is doing much better.  I don’t think he is coming back as soon as he wants to–he wants to be back next week, but I agree with his doctor.  He needs time to recover and rest, and since he had had his heart attack when he was stationary and not doing anything active, there is more reason for concern.  I just want him better.  At this point, I am feeling like a lousy friend.  I haven’t seen him since the day he had the attack, and I know I need to.  Besides being super busy, I am scared…I hate thinking of the what ifs, and seeing it for myself…I want to know he’s ok, but, well, I have a fear that things are going to change when he gets back.  I don’t know what is going to happen with our job, and that scares me.  There’s plenty I am nervous about, and I know I am avoiding, hiding.  I am not telling him all that I want to tell him (problems and such) because I don’t want him to worry or cause undue stress.  Instead, I am keeping it to myself–there really isn’t anyone else to lean on–and it’s getting harder and harder.

Ok, time to turn in…I will try to be on time next week!!  I hope that all of this levels out soon!!  When I get the slippers finished, I will start taking pictures of the Christmas presents.  Hope all have a good week!!

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Ok, it’s Friday.  So this first…

And…here we go!


1. My blueprint for success includes _finishing school and working in EM_.
2. _Hershey’s Cookies and Cream_ was the last candy I ate.
3. The best facial moisturizer I’ve ever used is _none–I don’t use them_.
4. _Crying_ can be good therapy.
5. I’d like to tell you about _yesterday…which I will in a minute…_.
6. _Organization_ is my strongest characteristic.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to _seeing my kids_, tomorrow my plans include _playing, homework, and checking on Robert,_ and Sunday, I want to _hopefully get to relax and knit_!

Yesterday was a serious wake up call.  I thought it was going to be a normal day at work, go to class, get home and change, then off to my knitting circle.  None of that happened.

My best friend/boss had a heart attack in front of me.  He said his back hurt–totally normal, and didn’t think anything of it.  Then it got worse, and he laid his head down.  Then pushed out his chair and laid down on the floor.  I was terrified–for him to want EMS it had to be really bad.  Less than two minutes and the ambulance and fire truck were there, and he was being hooked up to machines and oxygen…it scared the hell out of me.  Then the ambulance, the emergency room, and surgery…sitting with his wife and oldest daughter and another officer…then we got to see him when he was transferred to ICU.  Everyone had it together.  Everyone but me.  I kept crying.  Getting a grip, then crying some more.  I couldn’t get the picture out of my head of him lying on the ground.  Them carrying him to the stretcher.  His pain.  The thought that I might have lost him if I had not been there.

He’s ok now.  Awake, alert, joking, wanting a smoke…same as before.  But this made me realize a few things.  I don’t have many friends.  I have coworkers, people I know…but no one really to turn to when I need them.  He’s always been there for me, and he would have been the one I turned to.  But I couldn’t because he wasn’t there.  Everyone is busy, has other things going on…don’t want to have to deal with tears or hearing about how scared someone else is.  I have my family, and I am grateful for them.  My parents were there for me.  Friends?  Not so much.  I didn’t know how much I rely on him for a shoulder, for getting thru day to day stuff that comes up.  People at work really don’t know me, and I am not comfortable leaning on them.  There are not many others that I talk to.  I did finally get in touch with someone who I had considered a friend before but had disappeared.  Now…friends again, and for that I am thankful.  I also learned who I can’t count on.  That was an eye opener as well.  But I know now, and am better for it.

I have been frantically working on Christmas presents–most are going to be knitted since money is tight, and lord knows I have plenty of yarn.  Who am I kidding??  I never have enough yarn!!  Still, there is plenty for Christmas, and I have many ideas.  Getting them done in time is going to be a challenge, especially with school and work.  But I am going to try.  Pictures to come, of course.

And on that note, I am going to work on my paper for school that is due tomorrow…and worksheets…and the many other things that are piling up.  🙂  Wish me luck.

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I found a cute blog that I want to start using here.  It’s called Friday Fill-Ins.  However…last night was a bit busy with the trick or treat-ers, so I will do the first one now!  Then on to new news!!

1. My favorite food seasoning is _salt.  Simple and basic_.
2. _”Time to go to knitting circle!!”_ is music to my ears.
3. Lucky is _being blessed with what you need_.
4. _My job, which I love, and knitting, which I also love,_ is something I take very seriously.
5. Many people _depend on me_.
6. _Halloween candy_ was the last thing I bought at the store.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to _the cookout with my neighbors_, tomorrow my plans include _writing my articulation statement and knitting Christmas gifts_ and I want to _make a dent in writing my portfolio_!

Onto other things…

My friend Alexis was so wonderful as to introduce me to a great group of women–a knitting circle that happens to be close to my home!  So now, every Thursday, I am forunate enough to sit around with women (and one man, actually) who all enjoy doing the same thing I do.  There are a few loom knitters, but most are traditional knitters and crocheters.  It’s really nice to get away from home and homework and work and just be. 

I am also still happily working for the university, although only down to “student worker” since I am currently attending classes again.  It’s actually a good thing that I had reduced hours since school is taking up a lot of time.  But I did start applying for new jobs that are also at the university, just not doing what I am doing now.  My first interview is tomorrow with safe schools, and I really doubt that I will get it.  Mainly because I know that they already have someone in a temp position there, and most likely they will get the job.  It’s no big deal really…the money is good, but there is a lot of travel.  So I can go either way.  I also applied in several departments for the administrative assistant II positions, and do have a great chance.  I just really want something more…not being full time is really beginning to hurt, especially knowing that Christmas is right around the corner and we have the boys.  Plus benefits…since I quit the other job, I have been without benefits.  Student workers don’t qualify.  I have hope tho!

I did design a new pattern.  For once, I have decided to sell it.  I also have many other ideas for patterns, and now just have to figure out how to knit them and get it on paper.  Here’s a picture of my design:

Just excited!!! 
Anyway, that’s the latest, and hopefully I will begin to keep up with posting here again.  Many thanks to Bethany for helping with my edits!! *hugs*

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